Back in the 90's I had a computer but back then they did little more than word processing and even that was iffy! You had to download a word processing program as they didn't come with one and often were fraught with symbols and spaces where you didn't want them. Anything you wanted to do on the early computers were kept on big floppy disks and soon those were obsolete.
When I saw them going obsolete I typed out some of the poems I had found in library books or magazines or wherever and printed them off on scratch paper to keep. Through the years they were in a box of random "computer stuff" that was never opened or looked at really, but never-the-less moved with us across the country and back again numerous times.
This morning I was getting some old family genealogy information out when I saw a small pile of some of those poems I had typed out and printed at the time.
This is one of them.
I remember the first time I read this. I had a very new, tiny little baby girl. I recall not knowing what the poem was about when I started, and I gasped at the end when I realized it was a prayer from a mother after her baby girl had passed away. As a new Mom, holding her tiny baby girl... I remember I cried.
Prayer For a Very New Angel
God, God, be lenient her first night there.
The crib she slept in was so near my bed;
Her blue and white wool blanket was so soft,
Her pillow hollowed so to fit her head.
Teach me that she'll not want small rooms or me
When she has You and Heaven's immensity!
I always left a light out in the hall.
I hoped to make her fearless in the dark;
And yet, she was so small, one little light,
Not in the room, it scarcely mattered. Hark!
And in the morning, when she first woke up,
I always kissed her on her left cheek where
The dimple was. And oh, I wet the brush.
It makes it easier to curl her hair.
Just, just tomorrow, God, I pray,
When she wakes up, do things for her my way!
- Abby Violet Alleyn Storey
You might also be interested in poetry on grief and grieving, available through Amazon;
Poems of Mourning (Everyman's Library Pocket Poets Series)
The Art of Losing: Poems of Grief and Healing