It's Just the Coffee Talking: I just want to sit and think. And sip coffee.

It's one of those mornings where you have so, so much on your mind, on your heart, in your head that you just go inside yourself quietly.  

Oh, I know not everyone does that.  Many people prefer to talk.  Although I talk a lot, when there is something big, I tend to be quiet.  It's not a bad thing at all; it's how I deal.  Maybe because I do talk all. the. time. otherwise.  LOL. 

Some people don't talk all that much - or maybe a normal amount, and when they have big things on their minds they need to find someone to listen and pry it out of them.  Others like me figure things out best being silent for once.  :)

There is nothing new - nothing earth shattering or huge this weekend.  Just the same old same old, but I think you can just keep running full steam ahead for awhile and then you need to have a few days where you just go inside yourself and stop. 

I don't want to do anything really.  Not even talking to anyone. Conversation is too much effort.
No motivation at all.  I just want to sit and stare off and think.  Or lose myself in reading and not think about any of the things going on in life.  

As a matter of fact, I've spent the last 3 or 4 evenings doing just that.  When the day is done and my tasks are over - Mr. Husband is downstairs working out or watching tv, I have been immersing myself in someone's old blog I stumbled upon online.  Old as in... 2006 or so.  But it was kept up for about 10 years so it's almost like a book in a way.  And it's been good for me.  I read... and get immersed in their story.  My mind is not on events, people, bills, things, issues or anything but this family and their story.

Since December I've been running full speed and doing 'the next thing' because there is nothing else I can do.  There is always the next thing.  And I don't have a choice in the matter.  These are things in life that I have absolutely zero control over.  So I do them. 
I trudge ahead every single day and do them.  

But yesterday and today? I don't want to.
I don't want to think about all the things.
I don't want to deal with it.
I just want to sit and think.

And sip coffee.